13: Do or die.
Posted on 30 July 2018
THIS IS ME.
SIDEBAR: He snuck out of the yard and walked into this pic. Originally, it was supposed to just be me standing in front of all my hard work. I know, so humble. But baby wanted a cameo and tbh he made it perfect.
The imperfections; bumps, rolls, marks, internal scars, external scars, no make up, messy hair, never matching? Yes I have, all of the above.
Messy, every day exterior aside, I've grown to love the inside.
The burns, the cuts, the bruises, the broken hearts... they all feel like they may kill us, but time moves on and we live and we learn. Inner strength will always show up when you need it most, believe that. We are some resilient ass powerful humans, YA HEARD!?
The short and sweet of it is this...
You could sit around and wait for when you are "ready".
When you are your own definition of successful.
When your hair or outfit is perfect or when your body looks exactly how you've always wanted it to.
Or when you feel and look your best without picking yourself apart.
You could continue to look for validation in others but you'll remain empty because you know you won't find it outside yourself.
You could beat yourself up over failures or you could be your own best friend and celebrate each victory, big or small.
You could cling to situations you wish would have went differently or you could believe that there is something better in store for you.
You could wait for somebody to love and heal all of the mess that you are or you could just go ahead and do all of it yourself because nobody will ever do it better than you.
You could take all the rocks thrown at you and let them crush you or you could build yourself a beautiful castle.
You could hide the real you or you could just let her fucking live.
I prefer the latter.
Life is constantly challenging and changing us. The pain comes from holding on to things that aren't meant for us. The beauty comes when you let the kung fu grip go and let love and light back in.
Truly trust and believe that you are exactly where you need to be. And going where you need to go.
Know that things can change in a day, in a minute even. Practicing gratitude and a thankful, positive mind can take you places you didn't even know were an option.
Above all, the outside voices don't matter. It's the way you talk to yourself, love yourself and forgive yourself.
Yes, my summer blog sched has been shit. Life, as usual. Unpredicting, exciting, busy, life. That's life. (Insert Frank Sinatra song)
Remember to always take the time to come back to you.
I love you all an insane amount for never having met probably more than 90% of you. Thank you for riding on this journey with me.
LOVE YOU MORE THAN SUMMER.